Law of Inertia - 20/07

I have noticed that the mind can sometimes go off on a tangent, as the phrase goes. It runs and it runs, as if it is bound by the law of inertia, which becomes an uncomfortable and anxious experience. This especially occurs in the morning, when I am half awake and there is a desire to sleep but the dreams are too fast, intense and incoherent. The mind keeps churning visions, images at great speed, all incoherent, discordant and ultimatley exhausting. The only way out is to drag myself out of bed, despite a strong desire to sleep. 

Such are the problems of lowly beings. But thanks to meditation and perhaps a continued practice, I have gained some ability to watch my discomfort consciously, accept it and then deal with it patiently. This has not only helped deal with the problem, but also reduced the after effects of such occurrences. 

This also happens during the day, when I do not have any work and am continuously consuming content on social media or video platforms. This is typically triggered as an escape mechanism, caused by either a pending activity or a problem that needs resolution. The mind gets into a rut, where it wouldn't do anything else, but rapidly move from one video to another, one app to another and keep watching something or the other, escaping the situation of the moment. After a point, I can start feeling discomfort in this madness and it becomes essential to then watch myself, suspend all activity and center myself. 

Attention, complete attention at every moment. Attention to every thought, every motivation and the desires to act, that precede all action, is necessary. Only then will the causes of all the many patterns we repeat everyday reveal themselves. Only then will actions caused by anxiety and madness, cease. It's not reasoning that will cease those actions. Once the thoughts are revealed, seen, their ugliness realized, in those moments right before you say something or do something, the action stops automatically, out of disgust but also out of pure affection for yourself and those around you. 

There is no other formula, perhaps. Yes in mind and heart, there are still object, emotions and thoughts that dominate me, that cause discomfort. Ghosts of Christmas Past, Present and future, if you will. Some distance has perhaps been covered, some progress has perhaps been made, in being able to view these ghosts and accept their presence. Will they go away? Not sure..

These words are so beautiful. I love this language and the words that emerge from my mind. How they all tie together seamlessly and sound so harmonious. Writing can be one for one's own pleasure