27/05 - Mornings & Mantras

As I wake up, I find much disturbance in my thoughts. After intense dreaming, my return to reality is fraught with exhaustion, overwhelming emotions and an absence of love or joy. 

This makes my practice of meditation both difficult and yet essential. 

What I find remarkable is my own lack of devotion or passion for God. There is a certain nervousness associated with losing my ego, which is perhaps normal. What is clear though, is that a continuous connection to the source is necessary. This however breaks, through the course of the day. 

Repeated meditation may be useful. Mantras may come handy. Mantras before eating, drinking, sleeping, perhaps even speaking may help overcome the tide of thoughts and emotions in which we tend to get carried away and commit excesses on others and ourselves.

The essence or the 'mani' perhaps lies in practice or abhyasa, not just everyday, but through the day. Only then can all aspects of life harmonize. Only then can our desires and regrets slip away into ignominy. Overcome by the light of God, all negatives may find themselves weakened. In that space perhaps, devotion and joyfulness can grow. 

May the protector protect us all. 

Aum.